Life’s been kind of crazy. I guess that’s always the case. I know I haven’t posted in a couple weeks but that’s more based on lack of time and energy than a lack of anything to say.
There’s loads of topics where I could go on for pages and pages. I really want to do a deep dive on how people form a sense of identity and how to cultivate a sense of self that is independent of the groups one belongs to. I just haven’t had the time. I’d love to write something about how everyone being burnt out all the time is an intentional part of the system to keep people too tired to enact change, but I’ve been too exhausted to sit down and focus on that. Yes, I’m painfully aware of the irony.
I had to go back to work a couple weeks ago. I had been taking some time off to take care of my husband who has been struggling with various health issues. I wish I could say things were getting better or even that I had hope that they will eventually get better, but I’m kind of out of hope and faith.
I think what’s most important in my life right now is making time for people I care about and avoiding isolating myself. Being out of work so long I feel like I’ve gone kind of feral again. My social skills are rusty and my social battery seems like it only ever recharges to 5%. My body isn’t used to the physical aspects of my job anymore and the constant stress isn’t making things any easier. I feel like my heart rate is constantly 20 points higher than it should be and I don’t know what my blood pressure is looking like these days but it’s probably not great.
Life’s not all bad though. I’ve been catching up with a couple of old friends I haven’t talked to in a while. Cleaning out my emails sent me down memory lane and I hit up a few people to see what they were up to these days.
I’m also working on a new game project with a couple of family members. I’m really excited about that. It’s still mostly in the planning stages and I haven’t had as much time to work on it since I’ve been back at work, but I’ve been chipping away at working through some Godot tutorials to learn the engine. I’m already finding it more intuitive than I ever found Unity.
I might post something over in the art section later. It’s a few years old but really cute. I haven’t finished anything new since I last posted on here but I’ve got like three works in progress. I need to sit down and focus on just one.
I just wanted to post a quick little update.
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